If I was given five more minutes with you my Lucas, I would be sure that you always know how much I really loved you and I would find out that you loved me too.

I would tell you I was always proud of your achievements and everything you did.

We'd reminisce about Kennet River with your cousins Paul and Damian, uncle George and Kath - our funny last trip to Sydney and of course my trip to Launceston when we sat up in bed with cups of tea and talked for hours - the times you made me laugh.

We would completely toss away those times that made each other sad.

I would wrap my arms around you until our last second together was up. I would be happy for a while because I would have finally got to say "Goodbye my Darling Lukey".

If I could just have five more minutes with you - I would wish that five minutes could be a lifetime. I'd watch you with Kristi and Charlize, your beautiful baby (born 5 days after that terrible car accident).

I'd watch you get old and I'd watch you love your family.

How can I live without your dancing with me on Christmas, something we have done since you were a little boy.

How can I breath when I look at your photographs.

Please someone, God, anybody - I really need just 5 more minutes with my Luke.

It's Christmas Luke - you will always be in my heart.

I love you.

Mummy.
8th December 2008